This week has been crazy insane.
I been pushing it a lot lately, and I think I've been getting a little worn out. Last week started out with a tiny cold, but I refused in the name of Jesus to get sick. And even though this week has been extremely busy and stressful, I've really felt the need to rely on God for strength. I've realized that I tend to be extremely self-reliant. I think I have things under control, and I can handle it. I get easily impatient, so I take matters into my own hands instead of waiting on God. But this week, I've had to ask Him to get me through.
Between college classes, dance, play rehearsals, family, homework, errands, work, friends, and life in general, life definitely keeps me running with having a fixed schedule and mounds of deadlines. I hardly get one morning to sleep in all week... not that I'm complaining... trust me, I am more than blessed. But this past week has been tough -- spiritually, physically, and mentally. I'm ready for a break. A looong break. A revival.
So what better time for a revival then today, Good Friday? Unfortunately, I feel like I've hardly spent a minute with God except to pray quickly for the things I want. Sure I've thought about God, I've talked to Him, but somehow I'm longing for more. I want to give up everything I just simply think about HIM -- without a million other deadlines, plans, and worries running through my head.
But God is faithful.
"But [the LORD] said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
Wow. Just wow.
So those times when you feel like you can't take a breath, the times when you want to cry but don't have the tears, the times when you want to sing but no song will come, the times when you sit but still feel like your standing, the times when you sleep but still feel awake... those are times when God's grace is sufficient for me. I don't have to be strong. Because He already is.
Knowing this gives me peace. Peace for the present, and peace for the future. These past couple days have been hectic in trying to make plans for the summer and beyond. There are so many opportunities, and so little time to do it all. But it comforts me to know that God knows. He knows. He wants what is best for me, even if I seem to disagree. And I'm going to trust in His plan.
Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Thank you Jesus.
My church sang this song a couple weeks ago, and it says a lot of what I want to say.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
trains on a windy day
Bonjour, my readers!!
Ahh...shame on me! I'm sorry to have not posted in so long. I feel like I am neglecting my duty to write (although I'm the one who's making this a duty). But really, it's been too long. I'll try to be better at being more consistent. Hahaha, for those who know me well, we'll see how long my motivation lasts. ;)
Anyways, I have had quite an exciting and eventful last two weeks. Two weeks ago, I started spring quarter at a local state and community college. It's been a busy, crazy couple weeks trying to get into the swing of things again and adjusting myself to campus. I have to park my car all the way on west campus, which is miles from my classroom, and take a campus bus to my building. I feel like such a city dweller when I go downtown and take the bus will all these young college kids. It's nice because I feel like I'm sort of one of the crowd now.
However... I DID accidently take the wrong bus on Wednesday. I think I must have been half asleep or something because I got on the bus, and it took a turn that I knew it wasn't supposed to take. It was then I realized that I was in the wrong bus, and if I stayed on it, it would probably take at last a half an hour to get to class. So I quickly got off the next stop and panicked. There were no people or buses in sight. "I'm stranded!!!" I thought. "I'll be stuck here for an hour until another one comes along!" Fortunately, a guy came out of a near by building and climbed into a parked bus, started it up, and was about to pull out when I ran over to him, knocked on the doors, and climbed aboard. I had no idea what bus I was on, but I knew I had to get on something or I'd be waiting there FOREVER.
Thankfully, the bus that I took went nearby my bus stop, so I just ran the rest of the way to class. It was quite an adventure! From now on, I'll be sure to take the right bus!! :)
Anyways, besides my crazy college adventures, I was able to go hang out with my awesome play performance buddies last weekend. Besides me and my sister, there are three other girls who are all in the play Little Women at a local community theater. We have a blast together!!! So last Friday, we all went to dance that our directors put on, and afterward spent the night together. It was so much fun! At the dance, we ran around chasing people, eating food, naming things, trying to "break the rules," laughing at weird people, and having adventures in the bathroom. Then we went back to my friend's house, eat some more, watched Tangled, told creepy clown stories, shared secrets, and fell asleep exhausted.
The next day, we planned a photoshoot with the five of us, since my sister and one of my friends are extremely good photographers (and the rest of us like our pictures taken =]). We went to a nearby stationary train and had a mini-shoot out in the coldness and rain. It was so much fun!!!
Here's some of the results. Most of them are taken by Ruthie (the ones with Red Photo on them), and a few were taken by my sis Jenn.
Ahh...shame on me! I'm sorry to have not posted in so long. I feel like I am neglecting my duty to write (although I'm the one who's making this a duty). But really, it's been too long. I'll try to be better at being more consistent. Hahaha, for those who know me well, we'll see how long my motivation lasts. ;)
Anyways, I have had quite an exciting and eventful last two weeks. Two weeks ago, I started spring quarter at a local state and community college. It's been a busy, crazy couple weeks trying to get into the swing of things again and adjusting myself to campus. I have to park my car all the way on west campus, which is miles from my classroom, and take a campus bus to my building. I feel like such a city dweller when I go downtown and take the bus will all these young college kids. It's nice because I feel like I'm sort of one of the crowd now.
However... I DID accidently take the wrong bus on Wednesday. I think I must have been half asleep or something because I got on the bus, and it took a turn that I knew it wasn't supposed to take. It was then I realized that I was in the wrong bus, and if I stayed on it, it would probably take at last a half an hour to get to class. So I quickly got off the next stop and panicked. There were no people or buses in sight. "I'm stranded!!!" I thought. "I'll be stuck here for an hour until another one comes along!" Fortunately, a guy came out of a near by building and climbed into a parked bus, started it up, and was about to pull out when I ran over to him, knocked on the doors, and climbed aboard. I had no idea what bus I was on, but I knew I had to get on something or I'd be waiting there FOREVER.
Thankfully, the bus that I took went nearby my bus stop, so I just ran the rest of the way to class. It was quite an adventure! From now on, I'll be sure to take the right bus!! :)
Anyways, besides my crazy college adventures, I was able to go hang out with my awesome play performance buddies last weekend. Besides me and my sister, there are three other girls who are all in the play Little Women at a local community theater. We have a blast together!!! So last Friday, we all went to dance that our directors put on, and afterward spent the night together. It was so much fun! At the dance, we ran around chasing people, eating food, naming things, trying to "break the rules," laughing at weird people, and having adventures in the bathroom. Then we went back to my friend's house, eat some more, watched Tangled, told creepy clown stories, shared secrets, and fell asleep exhausted.
The next day, we planned a photoshoot with the five of us, since my sister and one of my friends are extremely good photographers (and the rest of us like our pictures taken =]). We went to a nearby stationary train and had a mini-shoot out in the coldness and rain. It was so much fun!!!
Here's some of the results. Most of them are taken by Ruthie (the ones with Red Photo on them), and a few were taken by my sis Jenn.
Caitlin, me, Ruthie, Lauren, and Jenn.
The awesome fivesome again. :)
Ruthie's idea... amazing shot.
Aw, love this one.
Jenn (Amy in Little Women)
Lauren (Beth in Little Women)
Ruthie (Meg in Little Women)
Caitlin (Aunt March in Little Women)
The rest are of me (and I'm Jo in Little Women). Aren't we the cutest March girls???
See this link for more photos: http://www.facebook.com/?sk=messages&tid=1644260033214#!/pages/Red-Photo/182689188443315
So yes, indeed, it was a glorious weekend, and we had a marvelous time, even though it was absolutely freezing outside! I can't wait for summer and sunshine, that's for sure. And I can't wait till our Little Women play!!! It's at the end of April and beginning of May... and it's going to be great!! and scary!! and so much fun! =]
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